This is something I have heard time and again and it is so true.
The problem I have is that I inherently always talk. It’s like if I’m not talking I don’t feel like anything will be seen. But I guess when I’m trying to right my wrongs it stands to reason that people, most importantly my wife, want to see action back up the things that I say.
I feel like the world is crumbling around me. I have to do one thing at a time because that’s how my mind works now, I can no longer seem to multi-task. Having no more racing thoughts is a blessing and a curse.
My racing thoughts or mind full of ideas is what let me focus on multiple items at once but now I no longer see 5 steps ahead. Granted before I was 5 steps ahead of 5 different options so it was clouded and I never seemed to gauge the truly negative outcomes.
Either way, while I’ve got my medication routine down and I’m able to be mindful most of the time, there is still a lot of action left to take to right my wrongs and commit to full recovery of my mindlessness and compulsive behavior.
So I gotta just soldier on and focus on the actions that will lead to recovery.