Paranoia

I am paranoid today. I was out 3 weeks after just starting a new job. That is not a good look for anyone that starts a new position. Yesterday my boss told me that he wanted to meet me one on one today. The pessimist in me believes that I will be getting fired or put on notice or something negative. I am hoping that it is just a regular meeting to catch up since I was out for so long.

I am trying to stay positive but I would be lying if I didn’t admit that my heart is racing and chest is pounding as I wait for my boss to arrive. The meeting was supposed to start at 8am, then he pushed it back to 8:15, then to 8:30. tick tock tick tock, 5 more minutes, hope he doesn’t reschedule again, I really just want to get this over with, the waiting is killing me…

And just as I was about to post this I got a text that he got dragged to another meeting and we will reschedule for later today, no time given… Grrrrrrrr I just want to get this over with.

I think God is trying to teach me to trust him and to have patience.